As I mentioned a couple times here on this blog, I've been feeling a little aimless lately. When I decided that I didn't want to make weight loss a primary goal, because the numbers game was driving me crazy, I kind of had an existential crisis. So much of my life was tied up in making the number on the scale or measuring tape go down, down, down, that I had this recurring panic attack of Who am I if I'm not trying to lose weight?
It sounds stupid, but whatever, I'm not afraid to look lame in front of you guys. This blog is all about being real.
So after an evolving conversation with my coach Melissa at CrossFit, and reading this amazing article by Jill at Jillfit, I started getting some clarity on what I want. I want being a fit, well person to be effortless.
Now hold up. I know that you're probably thinking, "Kelly, fitness doesn't come without effort! You have to work at that shit, yo!" And you're right. What I mean by this is that I want choices around fitness and wellness to become habitual -- to identify with being a fit & well person so much that good choices are made out of habit.
To do this, I need to create a set of habits that makes decisions for me, so that I don't get decision fatigue or have to trust my willpower all the time. I want to identify with my habits... i.e. I am a healthy person, so I am choosing the fish tacos, and not the burger. I am eating reasonable portions for my body, and I don't become overfull out of fear of scarity. I am exercising a sensible amount that doesn't cause excessive strain or injury. I give every workout my best effort always, although what that effort looks like may vary from day to day. I get more than adequate sleep. I take time every day to rest and recharge. Because I am a healthy person, that's what I do.
Does that make sense?
So here are some starting habits:
- Drink more water
- Get 7-8 hours of sleep a night, minimum
- Eat to 80% full, then stop
- Aim for 3-4 CrossFit days, 1-2 of cardio/active recovery (or something FUN!), and 1 full rest day (this one sounds intense, but I'm nearly there already)
- Before/after the WOD, do mobility exercises for my calves, feet, hip flexors, and shoulder
- Meditate every day
- Take my darn vitamins!
I want to be fit you guys, I really do. I want to also be well. I don't want to get sick every month or laid out by injury. I want to find that balance where I'm humming along with these great habits, and not paralyzed by indecision or consumed by fear of scarcity or in the middle of anger at perceived lack of agency. Because I have chosen these habits, because I'm passionate about them, and because they are mine, I'm hoping I can stick with them to affect some real change.
I'll keep you posted.