The last step in our Treatment Plan for Negative Body Triggers is to find something bigger than you. I don’t mean physically bigger than you, though it could be. I mean to find something deeper and bigger that makes you realize that ultimately, there’s something out there in the world more important that whatever insecurity you’re facing with your body right now.
I myself have been struggling with spirituality lately. I grew up in a pretty religious household, one where the prevailing thought was that we are made perfect. In my adolescent brain, that got translated into “I have to be perfect, all the time. If I am not perfect, I am not worthy. If I am not worthy, I will not be loved.”
It’s taken a long time for me to tease that all out, and to release the pressure from having to be perfect. I don’t think I need to be perfect anymore, but I do think I need to be open, and curious, and willing to let go of my own self-absorption long enough to recognize that the universe is vast, and that I am one small part of it; to be willing to know that there is much I don’t know.
I encourage you to read the whole article. It’s very good.
There’s plenty of stuff I don’t know yet—about myself, about my own life journey, about the big picture. I found out some challenging health news this week, and it made me realize how much I need to admit that I don’t know, to give up control, to surrender.
I can’t control my image, which is what this whole blog series is about. I can’t really control my body; I can contribute to its health, with diet and exercise and sleep and stress-reduction, but ultimately, that’s really all. My body is going to do what it’s going to do, because it’s a complex, adaptable organism. The universe is going to do what it’s going to do – keep on turning, with or without my input. The best thing I can do is acknowledge that I don’t know it all, that I can’t have all the answers yet, and be willing put myself into this grand experiment with hope and curiosity and surrender.
The nicest thing about this news is that I absolutely must focus on my health right now, and think less about my appearance. It is imperative that I don’t crash diet, or do anything wacky. I have to be sensible and moderate. I have to dig deep and surrender to the process. It’s a good time to be tuning in, not tuning out.
How do you tune in? What are your thoughts on spirituality?